OXLAEYBe Like Jesus and Give All Your Sh!t Away
In a split second after the breakup with Claire, I knew it was time to quit my job and leave. The 4 years were up. I had a promise to keep to myself. I resigned in April 2013 and started clearing out my life: selling off my stuff, giving away clothes, cancelled the contract on my apartment and sent documents back to my parents house in Texas for storage.In the weeks leading up to my last day, I went to Gestalt therapy but I still felt like a ghost on autopilot. I felt such an overpowering urge to out and off everything that wasn’t absolutely essential in my life. Slash and burn. I wanted a new, totally new start. I needed to rethink the basic premises I had built my life on. What was I working for? What really mattered in my life? How to get to that place?I needed to dig deeper than after my Easter weekend a year before. Therapy gave me a new direction to consider: How about just allowing me to be me? What if I could leave everything in my life which I put on to hide away, cover up and distract me from myself? What would my life be like if I stopped trying to change? What if I simply allowed the real me to come out?
